雖然聖誕節沒有放假,但各處還是掛滿了聖誕小燈。這個季節讓人感到既溫暖又寒冷、熟悉又陌生。十一月底參加了逗點文創結社的總編陳夏民在唐山書店的小講座「關於獨立出版,我想說的是⋯」,意外獲得一本詩集──鄭聿的《玻璃》,因為非常喜歡,所以徵得詩人的同意譯成英文。
這是很現代的詩,有很現代的寂寞。
最近的最遠
最近好嗎
有點想你
積了灰塵偶爾才擦拭的
那種想你
也漸漸明白
每日澆水
總有一天會變成流沙
人生的本質是什麼呢
照顧自己
開始像照顧盆栽一樣困難
常反覆按著
牆上的開關
覺得這輩子全亮或全暗
都只是一瞬間──
都沒關係了。
寂寞是擦拭乾淨
發現中間還隔著一片玻璃
用手指輕輕劃過的
冰涼和曠野
我仍想起了你
不打破什麼的那種
想起了你
The Nearest Farthest
How have you been lately
Kind of miss you
To wipe clean once in a while as it gathers dust
Is how I miss you
I gradually realize
And water it daily
One day it’ll become quicksand
What is the essence of life
Looking after oneself
Has become as difficult as attending a potted plant
Been turning on and off repeatedly
The wall switches
Having this feeling that a whole lifetime of complete brightness or darkness
Can be just a momentary thing--
It doesn’t matter now.
Loneliness is to wipe clean
While discovering a pane of glass still standing in-between
Swept gently with fingertips
The ice-cold and the wilderness
I still think of you
In a way without breaking anything
Is how I think of you
這是很現代的詩,有很現代的寂寞。
最近的最遠
最近好嗎
有點想你
積了灰塵偶爾才擦拭的
那種想你
也漸漸明白
每日澆水
總有一天會變成流沙
人生的本質是什麼呢
照顧自己
開始像照顧盆栽一樣困難
常反覆按著
牆上的開關
覺得這輩子全亮或全暗
都只是一瞬間──
都沒關係了。
寂寞是擦拭乾淨
發現中間還隔著一片玻璃
用手指輕輕劃過的
冰涼和曠野
我仍想起了你
不打破什麼的那種
想起了你
The Nearest Farthest
How have you been lately
Kind of miss you
To wipe clean once in a while as it gathers dust
Is how I miss you
I gradually realize
And water it daily
One day it’ll become quicksand
What is the essence of life
Looking after oneself
Has become as difficult as attending a potted plant
Been turning on and off repeatedly
The wall switches
Having this feeling that a whole lifetime of complete brightness or darkness
Can be just a momentary thing--
It doesn’t matter now.
Loneliness is to wipe clean
While discovering a pane of glass still standing in-between
Swept gently with fingertips
The ice-cold and the wilderness
I still think of you
In a way without breaking anything
Is how I think of you